excuses

it's been a long time since I've posted...too long, and I've been meaning to write so much, but there just hasn't been time for me to sit and just write about what I'm thinking...but something happened today that kinda rocked me...

I'm taking Poetry for the People (link to history and info)...and it's such an amazing class, the people dedicating their time to teach it, the raw and powerful poetry, learning about the struggles of cultures that are not of my own...it's a priceless experience and I just wish that I could give it the energy and passion that the class deserves.

Honestly, I've been slacking, using excuses such as work, clubs, and culture show as an excuse.

FIRST we are at the university as STUDENTS. I told my culture show CORE that...but then I contradicted myself by saying that I put culture show first when I really shouldn't....it's so hard, there's so much to do...but having the opportunity to take classes such as Poetry for the People, and photography with Janet. I need to learn balance. Anything is possible...I just gotta figure out how to do it right.

Anyway, I turned in a shitty response paper a week late, and then I whine to my STP (student teacher poet) about how busy I am and how crazy life is...but seriously, I need to suck it up and get my game together like everyone else, who I'm sure, have tons of others things to worry about too....so basically I feel like shit because I was a whiny baby. excuse, excuses..

I need to write poetry that I'm proud of. I need to take pictures that evoke emotion. I need to read and absorb what I read. I need to learn how to learn, how to be a better student. Because before you can change the world...you have to learn how...right? right.